July 23, 2017


Jacket: Lucy Paris | Top: Zara | Shorts: Sade and Sage | Shoes: Zara | Purse: thrift

Have you ever noticed how discontent leads to more discontent? I can think back on many times in my life where I could not wait to reach a certain season or milestone but upon doing so the new struggles that came with it made me want out as badly as I wanted in. This is literally why God calls us to be content and wait. Every trial we are experiencing now is to prepare us for what is to come. We must trust that God knows best because he really does. He knows if we are ready and he knows if he can trust us with the thing we want so badly. Also, rushing ahead of God will have you repeating the very season you ran from. Many of us want to lead before we follow. But God has placed you in this very season to teach you endurance, patience, contentment and to grow your faith. There is nothing wrong with setting goals and putting in the work to achieve them but God says that he will give us the desires of our heart "if" they align with his will and in his timing. This is why it is so important to be in tune with his voice. So many times he is telling us to wait on Him but because we aren't in tune we only hear what we want therefore causing us to rush into the next thing. I can remember when I was in retail. I wanted to get promoted so badly, but every time I knocked I got a no. This went on for what felt like forever. If I had been in tune to God's voice I probably would have heard him telling me to wait. I knew I wanted to have my own business and not grow within one but my eyes were fixed on the present. I didn't have hope for my future so I wanted a safety net and a title now. This lead me to continue my pursuit of a promotion until I finally got a yes. I was so excited (temporarily) but this particular yes meant that I would be working further away from home, longer hours, tougher boss and more responsibility than I had bargained for. Basically the grass was not greener. Of course I was up for the task but like I said, this thing that I wanted so bad wasn't as amazing as what I had fantasized it to be. It came with its own set of trials and forced me to step out of the shadows, especially if I wanted to continue to move up. My work was stellar but I was constantly overlooked because of my shy demeanor. So like I said, I was in such a rush to reach this season while God was telling me Alexia you are not ready. As an associate he was trying to teach me boldness, confidence, resilience, and leadership skills that would have served me well in my promotion but I was so busy wanting to get ahead that I landed myself out of his will. Then in the new position I was forced to learn these qualities while pretty much under the gun. It was tough at first. So many days I felt inadequate and even though I thrived in my work I still couldn't find my voice. So just as badly as I wanted this new position I wanted out. Like I said discontent just leads to more discontent. Eventually I left this job for something new which came with a pay increase but also required me to lead in boldness and confidence. Its a cycle, I rushed out of one season into another season and then into another ahead of God. Each time he was like nah, your not getting away from this lesson. He wanted me to know that he is in control and that he has placed me in certain environment to grow and refine me. I eventually want to have a clothing business of my own. How am I going to do that if I like to fly under the radar? It's impossible! Now being in tune with his voice I see that he is using my current season to teach me that I need to speak up, ask questions,  walk in boldness,  and confidence. So although my current job is super high stress, long crazy hours and not in my career path, I refuse to move. God has placed me here for a reason. Not for me to be lazy but to learn how to manage my stress, rely on Him, speak/walk boldly in my truth and BE A BOSS. I know what I want for my life and I strive towards it daily but I also recognize the importance of being content in the present while hopeful for the future cuz God has my back in both.


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  3. Those pearl shorts!!! Beautiful passage thank you for sharing. Xo, Ellese


  4. Your passage was so inspirational! I also love your sunglasses. :)

  5. The shorts are great catch, love your style


  6. Those shorts make the whole outfit. So chic!